The other day I caught this music video on much music. Not too many white female Canadian rappers around. This song is deep, check it out.
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"Love" ~Eternia ft. Jessica Kaya
Sometimes it confuses me
When I think about how it was I came to be
My mother told me when I was 23
That I almost didn't make it as a live entity
Inside a place for battered women
She found out that her belly swelled with life to be-
And you see, that wasn't what she wanted for me
Just a life filled with sadness, grief, and misery?
And she already had one son she had to raise
And protect from our father, more than slightly deranged
The stage was set from the get go I guess
That I had to be erased from her life consciousness
It was extermination or nothing at all-
This was how she live her life, black or white, right or wrong
Set the appointment, ready to go through with it
The love for her unborn seed would make her do it
I know you had good cause to let me go
But you chose the hard road even though
He beat you
He bruised you
And left you there alone
And when I'm not
Sure of myself
I think of your love
It lifts me up
You lift me up...
Now it's the day of reckoning
My fate is beckoning
Another second of this suspense-
Her heart is cavin' in
Knock at the front door
It's her best friend
Beggin' her to rethink, her willpower's lessening
And-
Now she's givin' it to the Almighty
Thank God, He sent an angel as a human-
Doin right by me
It's a baby girl, curly hair, green eyes
His smile, your nose, my tears - tread lightly
It's the first chapter of this saga
Hereafter we gon' share laughter, pain, anger
And it all matters
Cause I'm alive, and you gave this life to me-
I'ma love you till eternity for that, neva' lose me
I know you had good cause to let me go
But you chose the hard road even though
He beat you
He bruised you
And left you there alone
And when I'm not
Sure of myself
I think of your love
It lifts me up
You lift me up...
The story isn't over my friend, it's the beginning
Some things I can't explain in words, it takes a stronger vision
But still - listen to the story - God forgave him for me
Have mercy on my father's soul when he's to meet your glory
'Cause every man's a sinner right?
Some will take a life, some will beat their wife
Repenting for sins in afterlife
Nobody deserves the life you led
My mother you bled for me
Fought tooth and nail just to be there for me
In the trunk of the car were you scared for me?
Knowin' that he'd pull the trigger on you -
In a second you'd be dead for me
And that's the funny part of matrimony
Feelin' that you got a duty to the church
You sacrifice your own body
I love my life, I love my mother, and I love myself
I love my family, I'd sacrifice to noone else
And if you taught me one thing, mother you taught me well:
This is just another Survivor Story to tell
And if you taught me one thing, mother you taught me this:
Always have faith, live strong, resist
I know you had good cause to let me go
But you chose the hard road even though
He beat you
He bruised you
And left you there alone
And when I'm not
Sure of myself
I think of your love
It lifts me up
You lift me up...
Mama this world
Weighs on me
So heavily
That sometimes I can't breathe
Think of you lovin' me
Protecting all us three
And I know that certainly
I have your strength inside of me...
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You can check out the vid at
http://www.eternia.ca/index_flash.html
